Cameron

I should've posted this earlier with my other post....and since I won't be around much tomorrow, I figured I would post it now. As I had said in my post earlier, 9 years ago tomorrow we almost lost Cameron due to his undetected heart defects. Everything was very surreal that day, especially when the ER doctor told me he probably wouldn't live. When Dayton Children's came to transport him via Careflight, one of the nurses stopped in front of me and told the others that they were stopping so mom could give him a kiss. The only spot they could put an IV in was the top of his head and he was on this huge bed hooked up to so many things...I kissed his forehead and whispered, "Godspeed little man, I love you, stay strong!" I then had an overwhelming sense that he was going to be ok. Cameron is named after his great-grandfather whom passed away 3 years prior. (Ironically enough, he also had heart issues.) I really felt like my grandfather was watching out for Cameron from that moment on.

Cameron had his surgery on May 8, 2003 at Children's in Cincinnati. Everyone there was wonderful. Mother's Day for me was spent with him in the step down unit, but I wasn't complaining one bit. We were also able to run home to see Austin and Alexa on that Mother's Day too. The nurses made me a card that was "from" Cameron, which I still have to this day. :)

A few weeks after Cameron's surgery, his incision that reached from under his left arm to the middle of his back became infected. We took him to Dayton Children's and he had to spend another 7 days in the hospital. I tried staying the night, but I just wasn't getting any sleep with all of the interruptions and I also felt neglectful of Austin and Alexa at home. I decided to spend my days at the hospital, but come home at night to be with the other 2. I felt guilty for leaving Cameron and one day as I was leaving the hospital I popped in the newest Dixie Chicks CD that I had just bought but hadn't had a chance to listen to yet. The title of one of the songs was "Godspeed (Sweet Dreams)". I immediately went right to that song and just cried...I felt a little better...knowing that my grandpa was still up there watching out for my little man.

I consider this "Cameron's song" and used to sing it to him all of the time when he was little. It would always quiet him and he would always listen intently. Here's a link to a YouTube of the song...take a listen, it's very sweet! :)