Patience is a Virtue (Part II)

Wow! Amazing what trusting in God for patience can do for you! I admit on Monday I was feeling so down and wanting to call Cleveland because I had no patience. Why wasn't I the priority??? Why weren't they calling me???? Did they even present me like promised?? Well, it's not all about me. I do know that. The world does not revolve around me or anyone else for that matter. I learned a valuable lesson in patience on Monday and am so glad that I trusted in not just God but in myself as well. It was rough but I waited it out and everything turned out just like it should.

So I thought that I wouldn't hear anything more until Monday, because the coordinator that called me on the 4th said that my coordinator would call me on the 11th with more details. God must've been so pleased with my patience that I got a phone call today from my coordinator telling me that she was just waiting on 2 approvals and then I would be listed! She said it could be as early as today and if it was she would call me back. I didn't get a call back from her, but I was totally not expecting her to call me today, that's for sure!! So maybe I will hear from her tomorrow. Maybe I won't. I'm just taking it a day at a time and what happens, happens. I'm not in control anyway, so why try? I'm just the one fighting to be here and hope that is what God has planned for me. I trust He knows what he's doing and His plan for me. Funny though how I feel "rewarded" today for my "good patience behavior" from God. :)

I can say that I am happy to be at this next step because each day is getting harder. It will still not be an easy road by any means after transplant either. I know my emotions will be all over the place in the coming days/weeks/months not knowing when "The Call" will come. If it will be the real deal, or a false run. Not only that but knowing that someone else has to die in order for me to live also saddens me. I realize this is just life and how things are, but it doesn't make it any easier nonetheless. I am a donor too and so it could very well be me saving lives instead of the other way around! Who knows! Only God. It is my hope though that I am listed soon, I get my new wings soon and I can take hold of my new life and live every single day for me, my family, God and my donor family.

God Bless everyone in my life.....I feel so lucky to have been blessed with so many great people in my life. Doug had to laugh at me a few weeks ago when I was being transported from Good Sam to Cleveland. Well, not really laugh at me...but I had the nurses all giving me hugs before I left. He is always making the comment...what is it about you that wherever you go people get attached and hug you and like you so much? He wasn't being mean of course...he's witnessed countless times people just gravitate to me. I didn't really have an answer. I don't really have an answer now. I try to be positive. I try to always have a smile on my face which is hard to do most days....and I'm just a huggable person I guess! ;)

Patience wasn't really with me in Cleveland on Memorial Day though. I had enough and was ready to come home so I could see my family before they left. Crying helped to push things along. :) I got the chance to spend a little bit of time with them!!

May 29, 2012 My mom, dad and me!

Day after coming home from Cleveland.

Me and Theron, my big brother! :)

My face and neck is huge from the trapped air trying to

make its way out of my system. :(

Aunt Sue and me!

My most favorite aunt, miss her bunches! :)